I dared to be ME
I was different than seen…
Not everyone wanted to know me.
And some, who wanted to know me
I protected myself by wearing a mask.
I loved someone who didn’t want me
And I left the one who loved me
I was wrong who wouldn’t hurt me
I forgave the one who was not wrong
I found what I wasn’t looking for
And I looked for what I couldn’t find
I believed in what didn’t exist
And I really doubted the truth too often.
Many dreams have been denied me
But the nightmares came true
I was allowed to knock behind closed doors
But in my life I received everyone
I cried in happy moments
I laughed when my soul cried
I whispered when I wanted to scream
I screamed as my voice whispered
I lost what was most valuable
I earned what I didn’t need
I kept imaginary treasures
And I squandered what was precious
I didn’t believe it and yet I received it
Good, bad, I carried them all.
What was free too expensive I paid
What was expensive was easily forgiven.
I walked straight on winding paths
And I often got lost on smooth roads
I got lost many times, far away
But I always found my way
I had everything when I had nothing
I took care of myself when I had everything
I was dead, even if I lived
I was alive when I was dying…
I chose the worst for real
I was given the best of evil
I got lost and found myself
But I dared to be ME… always!
Manoj Kumar Panda
